My Army Service in the West Bank
At other times, we would be told to search for wanted Palestinians. We were never told what they were accused of, and I suspect most of them knew even less. We were just given maps of the city and told to arrest individuals in specific addresses, usually about twenty a day. We blindfolded them, put them in handcuffs, and pushed them into a waiting van, where we would kick them in the stomach.
We were told this was nothing compared to the good old days, before the world media started covering the Intifada. In the good old days soldiers used to make Palestinians sing “My Golani,” the army brigade’s anthem. Soldiers used to paint Palestinians’ donkeys in green and yellow, the brigade’s colors. The good old days were a free-for-all of torture, theft, and humiliation.
We used to open doors to random houses and do a search. This meant putting everyone in one room with one soldier guarding the family with a gun aimed at their heads, with young children crying, grandparents pleading, mothers holding them tightly, and fathers sitting defiant to maintain what was left of their pride. The rest of us walked room by room, opening drawers and throwing their contents on the floor, emptying closets, throwing antique lamps on the walls and breaking them, stepping on beddings with muddy shoes and complaining about the smell. In one drawer I found a letter an eighteen year-old Palestinian wrote to a pen pal in Denmark. He wrote about his wish that one day the violence would end and a Palestinian State would rise alongside Israel. I thought he was trying to fool her into coming to visit him so he could use her to transfer explosives into Israeli cities.
One time we were walking in the middle of the road when a car turned a corner and immediately stopped. When we reached the car and moved to the side, one of us remained in the center of the road and simply climbed the hood of the car with his gun aimed at the driver’s face. He continued walking up to the roof, then back down, when the driver rolled the window down and asked in Hebrew, “What the hell are you doing?” Apparently this was a secret elite unit of soldiers who were dressed like Palestinians, infiltrating the city to find out information about attacks. “Oh,” said my friend, “I thought you were Arabs.” Everyone laughed.
Sometimes in Nablus I used to shoot pigeons out of boredom. Others shot mosque speakers.
The only Arabic phrases I know after three years of service in Nablus and in Gaza are “Open the door,” “Turn the car off,” “Give me your papers,” and “Stop or I’ll shoot.”
















18 comments:
I'm stuck on the guy who wanted to see a Palestinian state alongside Israel--it seems like it is not too much to ask for, no matter how politically charged one can be on this topic.
I can't imagine all that violence, but I suppose there are folks in the world who can't imagine a world without violence of that nature, like the old man who has to get back to his vegetable stand, business as usual.
The sad part is how it seems that not much has changed, that not much has been accomplished.
I appreciate your experince. Too bad this isn't a talk--I would be all over the Q&A.
Hey,
Thought I'd wander on over here to check you out.
I'm kind of sad for you.
My Dad was in the army. Not an easy job by any stretch of the imagination.
I'll be popping by regulary to see what you're up to.
Thanks for sharing.
Durante, I'll never forget the young man with the pen pal. When I was standing there reading his letter, I remember thinking for a second that maybe he was sincere and maybe he was just a young man who used letters as a means of escape from the terrible reality around him, but this feeling didn't last long. I was brainwashed into thinking they were all manipulative liars who'd do anything to achieve their ultimate goal: killing me. Within that frame of mind, I interpreted everything I did--destroying strangers' houses, reading personal letters and hitting an old man--as self defense.
Little Miss, no need to feel sad for me. What I've gone through is nothing compared to what others have experienced there. You may feel sad for some people who served with me and are still certain they did the right thing, and you may feel sad for the soldiers in Iraq who, day after day discover a side of them they wished wasn't there. And you can feel sad for the victims.
We all tend to see ourselves as Hugh C. Thompson, the pilot who landed his helicopter between William Calley's men and the survivors of the My Lai massacre, aiming his missiles at the advancing soldiers. We all think that even in the fog of war our moral background would guide us to do the right thing. But most of us will fail.
Thanks for visiting. Sorry I'm rambling without a point.
I'm really glad you wrote this.
I'd be very surprised if this is genuine.
Sounds like pro-Islamic rhetoric to me.
Doug, thanks.
6000, where do I begin? Rhetoric is a big word with negative connotations. But how can it be pro-Islamic if I didn't write anything about Islam? And yes, it is genuine. I don't know how I can prove it, though... Maybe if I had a picture of myself as a soldier in Nablus?
Wow. That was a great post. It's hard to say anything about it, we always see this sort of stuff in the news that we rarely get the story on the human level. It's nice to read your post, it reminds me that there really are individuals who are going through these stories, sometimes tragic, but mostly sad stories.
I'm sure it was a hard thing to go through. I hope you write more about these experiences, they are very powerful and really fascinating.
Everyone in that region is in a difficult spot, the Arabs, specifically the Palestineans, got punished for the European butchery of the Jews... And it seems like throughout history it was Arabs who were more tolerant of Jews than were Christians!!! And I don't just think of the holocaust, but looking back on French history, the Jewish people had a rough time of it in that country! I guess in most European countries... But I'm no expert on that stuff...
Thanks, Sebastien. Throughout history, Christians were definitely worse than Muslims, but during the Holocaust many Christians risked their lives to save Jews because of their faith, so I'm not sure anyone can put the blame on Christianity itself. It's always been about money and power rather than about religion. In general, Muslims maintained occupied lands by letting locals practice their own religions, while Christians often tried to convert Jews because it fitted with their plans on a local level.
As for my own experience, the really hard thing was to slowly acknowledge I'd been fooled (and I don't mean to take away any responsibility from my own actions). I loved "Full Metal Jacket," but still requested to serve in an infantry unit rather than having a desk job. I thought the smell of open sewers in Gaza was the most disgusting thing in the world, but blamed the conditions on Palestinian inaction rather than on their condition as occupied people with no resources. The disconnect between reality and the propaganda I devoured only became clear once I left the army.
One thing that you can take out of this or other Israeli reports (B'Tselem,et al) is how uncannily tolerant the Palestinians are. The media like to portray them as all being crazed lovers of death without cause. But if their tolerance were on a (lower) level of that of Americans (or Canadians, or Brits), there would be many orders of magnitude more attacks against civilian Israelis.
Perhaps all we can do is what we did to our pal '6000' in the 80s: economic boycott.
Djeb, isn't it amazing that meanwhile the boycott goes against the democratically elected Palestinian government? At the same time, every attempt to discuss a boycott against Israel is seen as antisemitic (kind of ironic, because Palestinians are Semites).
As for the Palestinians' level of tolerance, you're talking about a nation mostly born into these desperate conditions. The 10-year-old kid that sat in the corner when I broke into his house is now twenty-five-years-old, probably watching his own kid sit scared in the corner.
And if those evil Israelis would just stop blowing up Palestinians in their buses the whole world would be dressed in white and go to Church on Sundays with halos glowing around their heads.
...and people would stop posting anonymously.
what the difference between anonymously or non anonymously, the thruth is tha palestinian people are killing civilian israelis
a friend of anonimously
Anonymous, I meant my previous comment as a joke to counter the cynicism of your friend's comment. Honestly, what do I care if someone chooses to post anonymously? After all, I post anonymously.
Now, as for your comment, it's true. Palestinian suicide bombers kill Israeli adults and children, civilians and soldiers, right wing and left wing people. So? Does it mean a soldier in the West Bank can act like an entire city is his own private playground? Does it mean an eighteen-year-old kid has a right to beat up an old vegetable vendor? Does it automatically give me the moral right to do anything I want? If we are truly human beings created in the image of God, does it not force us to reflect on our own actions? Palestinians kill Israeli civilians and Israelis kill Palestinian civilians. The question is when are we going to start judging ourselves rather than pretending everything we do is justified by the actions of another.
I am a person that think the human being have, like Hobbs said, a disposition to nastiness, so you are doing well in trying a kind of redemption, and trying to be in your new life a better person, in every field. Don't be mistaking I think that what you and your fellow soldiers did is not something you can easily forget, but you are hard with yourself and seems to forget what bring this behavior of yours, it was you fear and your angriness about all this situation, and you must, sorry you don't must, because as another philosopher said, Voltaire, "I do not agree with what you say, but I'll fight until death (in my case it will not be until death, I'll stop before), so you have the right to say it" but please give a little think also about the Israeli families that lost in civilian bombing attack the dearest think in their life, a husband or a son , and with due respect for your humanitarian care for the Fahima girl, she did something that could mean more death, and as you know and said, they would be from either the left or the right party, instead of trying to achieve peace with dialogs. anonymous friend
As much as I wish my post could redeem my past actions, in the back of my mind I fear I would act the same if I were in Nablus today. And I have no doubt that American soldiers in Iraq are going through very similar expriences. I'm not condemning my past self nor American soldiers currently in Iraq, but if we believe we can avoid a situation that brings out the worst of our humanity then we should do everything in our power to do so.
My fear and anger in the past is unfortunately also felt by Palestinian and Iraqi suicide bombers. Fear and anger are just excuses for otherwise inexcusable actions.
Tali Fahima was called many terrible names. She was a terrorist, a whore, a traitor--but future generations of Israelis will hopefully see what she did as another small step on the way to regarding a faceless enemy as a human being. Now, like you say, a human being is not the best creature on this planet--humans hate and kill and often look at the world from a narrow, egocentric perspective--but a human being is someone you can talk to and negotiate with rather than just fight against. A faceless enemy, on the other hand, forever remains an enemy.
I applaud your brutal honesty here. If you want to hear American soldiers still in the midst of it and less self-reflective, try listening to 4th25, "Live from Iraq," an excellent, if disturbing CD. I expect you'll recognize some stuff in there.
Thanks, MS. I looked around and Found their MySpace page and also a video on iFilm. Very interesting.
And Fox News says we show too much bad stuff from Iraq. If enough people knew what was really going on there the war would have ended today.
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